Must-read post.

Okay, well, I know that I've kinda been hiding something under a darklight with you guys for a little bit. I've mentioned that my family had a decision we had to make, and that I wasn't revealing the exact problem just jet. Well, sorry to keep you all in suspence. (Heh, especially Aunt Terry!) However, I will now explain the whole thing:

As a lot of you know, I am a fairly normal tween girl. I listen to pop music, play video games, I go to church, I have little brothers. But I'm also different in a lot of ways. One of those ways is the fact that I am homeschooled.

You've all asked me a lot of questions about me being homeschooled. And it's fun. I know lots of families do it, and it's a way of keeping your kids away from all the bad stuff they're going to witness in public school.

Well, I've been homeschooled since first grade. Two of my friends, Shannon and Katie, are homeschooled, too. But I barely ever see them. My mom really does try, but I can't honestly feel like a normal kid with a normal social life while homeschooling.

I've been feeling very lonely, depressed, and alone for a long while. Really, I was getting obsessed with this blog to make up for my lack of sociality. I was depending on Aoife and Loulou and Brookie for the friends I wasn't talking to here. Really, my social life was a blog page, full of comments from girls I've never even met.

I love you guys, but I needed something more. In December, I realized that my life cannot revolve around a misfiring browser box. I have my needs to. So I began considering SCHOOL and talked to my parents, praying about it for eternity.

They said that I could go to private school. You know, those ones that cost MONEY. It seemed like a great plan, Cassidy could go back, the others could stay home, and everything would be perfect. But it really wasn't perfect at all.

Think about it. Mom would have to get a job, drive tons of hours for me, and still have to homeschool the others. Money would be tight and we'd have no family time except car rides and dropoffs. I wouldn't be able to see Jessica or Shannon MORE, I'd see them less because I'd be going to a far away land, full of preppy, Christian girls with lots more money then us.

My grades aren't that great. I've gotten lectures about trying my best and double checking. Most of the time, I didn't double check or anything. I whizzed through to do the stuff that I wanted to do, instead of the important stuff. Mom and dad said that if I didn't get my grades up, there wouldn't be a way to send me away to one of these schools.

I wanted it to be over. I wanted to confusion and mystery to be over. I prayed to God, asking for his help.

We asked what Christian school I should go to.

But notice that sentance. We were missing the whole thing. Look at that sentance. Look really close. Don't you see it? That work in the middle: CHRISTIAN.

We were knocking at the wrong door. My mom called me in today with the answer. She said that there's no way I can minister to others IN A CHRISTIAN SCHOOL. She can't hide me from middle school. Middle school can't hide from me.

Yep. I'm taking a journey from the land of unknown to the much-feared middle school. We never considered it. But think about it: I'm a people person. I come on strong and stick. I make friends easily. I don't like to brag, but, people say I'm funny, original, and I could make it.

I could just be the loner. I could be the person no one likes. I could be the weird kid with her nose in a comic book and headphones in her ears. I could be rejected miserably.

Or I could whirl middle school around and make a change in the whole school. There's nothing stopping me from dominating the local junior high. I could revolutionize the way the world thinks of vegetarians, of kids who don't smoke, of underdogs, of Christians.

That's it. That's what I was keeping from you. Tell me what you think. Wish me luck, or discourage me. I don't care. But I'm taking middle school by storm, and no bully, principal, or presidant can stop me.