Upcoming Rant

I feel sick. I'm so done with school that it's not even funny.

We have this thing where you can see your grades and missing assignments online for school, right? and i went on to check my social studies grade and stumbles upon my math grade.

according to my math teacher, i have three missing assignments and do nothing at help session.

i'm really SO DONE with this. the last log is:

"stayed for extra help today. Spent most of the time talking to BG."

That's Ben Garrett. He's one of my best friends and yeah we talk a lot. Shut up. But i feel so awful for getting him in trouble because his probably says "spent most of time talking to CH" and I feel terrible and if this brings our grades down it's not good. this guy is really unfair and i'm so done with this!

literally. i'm about to switch out.

sorry, it's just...i got my friend in trouble at help session and i feel SO BAD. and i don't have any missing assignments! I'm done with this. absolutely done with this class. it's a hard class and my teacher is a jerk and i can't even stay for help session! if i get below a C i am going to be one unhappy camper. i'm upset. i don't often get upset.

i'm sorry i just bored you with that. i need to go relay rant this to sam.

Oh dear

It's been a while, hasn't it?

Well, uh, merrychristmashappynewyear. I've been so very busy with schoolwork lately, and I'm still pretty sure I'm going to fail math. Not exactly sure about science, either. That's no fun. Mrs. Vargas keeps calling me Cassy. It's actually really bothering me.

I've made so many new friends this year. I'm happy and honored to know so many new people. And I've been spending so much time with them, I guess I've completely neglected writing here. I'll try to be more up to date here.

My select chorus teacher says he thinks we're having a competition soon. That's really exciting because that means me and my friends get to skip a day of school and go sing and do good in front of other people and take home platinum probably. And that would be so cool. We're not that great, but he says that with work, we'll be perfect.

I have to go to two assmeblies tomorrow because I'm cross-team and so me and Adam (who's cross team too) have to go to green team when they dismiss for green team, and then we have to go to gold team, too. It's the same assembly both times, but we have to go twice. We have the same classes. It's pretty cool that I have someone who has a similar schedule to mine so I'm not totally lost all the time.

I don't remember if I mentioned or not, but I got the lead in the school play. It's a dinky thing, and it's actually really cheesy, but Kate and Gillian and Sophie and Shane and Zee are doing it, so I thought, why not? And it's been really fun so far and I'm happy.

Nothing else really to report. Have a nice night :)

if i let you know i'm here for you

i had a brilliant day today. and tomorrow i get to move two classes and literally go eat ice cream with all my smart friends, because my school does this thing where if you make honor roll, you get an ice cream party. and told i got a 100 back on a social studies essay and i never get 100s.

i had an audition for the school play. i got my first standing ovation. i mean, it was an audition. i don't know if i got a part or anything. but it felt pretty great.

i should probably go do somework now. i just kind of wanted to talk.

golden sunshine

weird title because my day really doesn't feel like golden sunshine.

i'm have a not good day. nothing happened to make it bad, except i got a headache and had to miss chorus, but nothing good happened either, except i made up with one of my friends. it's a long story, but he was mad at me and for a while he wouldn't walk me up the stairs to my next class, which was a REALLY gentlemany thing to do, but after we kind of fought everything was awkward and he wouldn't walk with me and it was terrible and really quiet.

but today he walked with me and i'm happy.

except i'm too tired all the time and sometimes i just wish everyone would shut up and other times i just wish everybody would talk to me. i don't even know what i want. i think i just want to go downstairs and play my ukulele. that and my ipod have pretty much become everything in my life.

pack your bags, cause i've already won

today the whole eighth grade class went over to the high school to take a tour of the tech division. in my group were a couple of my friends (elise, tim, brandon berlanger, miranda, noah, and ben garrett), but i just hung out with ben the whole time because idk i love ben. he's the conceited jock. every class has one. he's also like one of my best friends now.

we just talked the whole time because we're not going to the tech division, so who cares? we all know what we're going to be when we grow up anyways.

me: i'm going to be famous when i grow up.
noah: i'm going to go into business.
me: why?
noah: so i can get rich!
ben: i'm already rich.
noah: you are?
ben: yeah. i'll just keep being rich when i'm older and i won't have to work.
me: yeah right.
noah: maybe i'll just find an oil mine in my backyard so i won't have to work either.
me: now you've influenced him ben.
ben: sorry.

today in science bryce didn't do half of his project. we had to peer grade. me, adam, and bryce just walked around. we kind of just gave everyone an A, except josh, because we don't like him, and vonti, becase his project looked like a disaster area exploded onto some cardboard.

that's it for today okay byyeee

thanksgiving

it's tomorrow :) and i'm heading out to visit family, same with the day after. today's kristine's birthday. she's turning five.

i finished charlotte's web, obviously, and my birthday followed. report cards came out. honor roll, although barely ;) me and sam, tyler, eddie, liam, andrew, gabe, felecia, and krista all saw existing the fall in concert and it was incredible. tyler, sam, liam, eddie, and me all went down into the mosh pit (you know, like right in front of the stage) and it was pretty incredible.

except we were staying in a hotel (which my friend danny was also staying in which was awesome) and andrew, sam, and tyler had to room with this kid named marquis who wouldn't shut up all night, even after we got back from the concert, so sam was texting me all night about how tired he was and how he just wanted marquis to shut up.

so i'm just listening to music because it was a half-day from school today. i love music. i love listening to music and that's pretty much all i ever do anymore, really. but that's okay with me. music is good.

today me and kevin had to play this game in math and it was actually really funny because it was the most boring and confusing game i've ever played in my entire life. we ended up not understanding and just laughing and talking the whole class except when me teacher walked by and then we pretended we totally knew what we were doing, even though we absolutely did NOT.

to leave you i'm just going to put up a cute pic of me and sam and krista and felecia at the concert waiting outside in the entryway.

guess which one's me ;) and then sam (duh) and then krista and felecia's in the owl hat. byye have a good holiday people ;)

dance around in your pjs getting ready for school

When I grow up, I am going to be a cool mom.

i'm going to sing to them all the time and randomly just start baking cookies and letting them frost them and allowing my living room to be turned into a dragon's lair with forts made out of couch cushions and play beautiful music for my children all the time. I'm going to name them beautiful names and write stories about them and let them wear what they want and let them be creative.

i'm going to let them turn the kitchen into a dance studio and take lots of photos of them and we'll have a cat and they'll name him and i'll play pirates with them and pretend to pillage the towns around us. i'm going to make them the occasional coco until they're old enough to drink tea with me and sometimes just buy them clothes, if i have enough money, but even if i don't, i'll make it work and i'll let them pierce their ears if they want to.

i'm going to do some of the things my own mom did, like take them out for donuts on occasion and sing them bedtime songs and be silly sometimes and drive them places even if it's out of the way and buy lots of good, nutritious but still yummy food and not be picky about what they wear and who they hang out with as long as i know they'll behave.

i'm going to let them climb trees and i'm going to take them on crazy vacations and cuddle with them in the mornings and help with their homework and hug them before they get on the bus and let their friends come over all the time and i'll make decent food and i won't yell when i don't need to and i'll be open to everything all the time and i'll get them all ipods because ever child needs music in their life.

but no matter what, i'm going to hug them when they need it and ask if they're okay and i'm going to take them to church every week and tell them i love them and they can always be their own person and me and their father will love each other and love them and no matter what happens, i will be their mother and they will be my children and we will be family because i never want my children to feel like there's nobody there for them because that's the worst feeling in the world.