things to do before i die...

1: kiss a boy.
2: go to france.
3: paint something.
4: win a trophy or medal.
5: have sam teach me how to skateboard.
6: pierce something cool.
7: dye my hair all pink.
8: buy the perfect pair of headphones.
9: publish a book.
10: be famous.

11: go on a road trip with friends.
12: find perfect sunglasses.
13: meet a famous person.
14: get through a lolipop without biting it.
15: fall in love.
16: become a disney princess.
17: ride a roller coaster with a loop in it.
18: do a perfect drumroll.
19: be on american idol.
20: meet a hot european guy ;)

21: find the cutest pair of heels ever and wear them.
22: talk on the phone for three hours.
23: cross the ocean.
24: graduate college.
25: go on an adventure. in a helicopter.
26: go to prom.
27: see a live broadway show.
28: cut kyle's hair.
29: get my own apartment. in new york.
30: learn how to speak french fluently.

"Love, I have waited for you. Love, I was wounded for you. So tell me what else can I do, through the pain and through the mood, to find I am true?"-On and On by Tenth Avenue North

some forever not for better....

yes, ladies and gentlemen, those were the days. before i dyed my hair, before i wore expensive sneakers, back before i wore makeup, back before the days of earrings and text messages and school projects due and parties and song lyrics and cute boy bands and back before time began........

there was an oatmeal-flavored Hannah Montana sticker pressed up against the wall, wearing baggy shorts and some loose-fitting t-shirt, with just one sister and glue-and-glitter homeschool friends and uneven bangs and freckles. she wanted to be a writer when she grew up, but that changed from day to day. she spent her days running around outside catching frogs with her cousin and then went to bed at seven o'clock. wheat toast for breakfast. math workbooks for lunch. cheerful, happy, and carefree.

i just had a fight with sam. over cookies. kyle's threatening to kidnap me if we don't hang out soon. my friend gummie's been messaging me more than ever. song lyrics are coming more than usual. everything seems to be both falling out of place and into it...

and now, my wonderful audience, i present to you, cassidy. she's wearing purple basketball shorts, and Adventure Time t-shirt her aunt bought for her, with her half-blond half-brown hair up in a messy bun because it's summer and she doesn't want to do anything with it. she's not wearing makeup. she's wearing black diamond stud earrings. she's biting her lip and texting her friend andrew and blogging and singing a song in her head and she's also looking for pictures she can tumblr. because she's a nerd.

cassidy is bored and freezing cold because there's a fan right next to her and an open window and it's cold and rainy outside. she misses her brother ozzy today because she hasn't seen him in months. and she's also thinking about how last week she ran around in the rain and got soaked with her friends Sandra, Sadie, Katie, Hunter, and Kyla. and she's also thinkin about sam, because she can't see him again because he's transferring to the next middle school. and she's sad. because he was her best friend. other than kyle. who's sad because she can't come over tomorrow.

these thoughts are completely irrelevant and she's going to end with a picture and a song quote. don't expect a lot of posts from her because she'll be talking to sam 24/7. and she's hopeless....

"But you didn't have to cut me off, pretend like it never happened and that we were nothing. i guess i didn't need your love, but you treat me like a stranger, it felt so rough."-Somebody I Used to Know by Goteye

one year...

I will admit I'm the naughty student.

Well I'm sorry again for an abscence in posting, I've just had all my finals and I'm exhausted. Summer is finally here, I'm hot, just been swimming, and am about ready to fall of a bicycle, roll down a hill, go down a river that leads into the ocean and swim with the dolphins for about three months. After tomorrow, of course.

Tomorrow is Anita's party...end of the year thing. It's been a long year, but it's over now.

Practically.

I look back on this year. (Sorry, just more goodbye-sort-of-thing for now.) Well, this year...this year smells like cupcakes and feels like sweaters and tastes like school pizza and looks like the in-school suspention room and sounds like Bring Me The Horizon. I made a little alphabet :) enjoy, loves <3

A is for Anita, one of my best friends.
B is for breakfast, something I missed because I was late quite often.
C is for calls, phone ones, between friends.
D is for detention. Only had one.
E is for English, my best subject by far.
F is for flunking, something Kyle did but I did not.
G is for greasy, like school food.
H is for homeschooled, something I am not anymore.
I is for in-school, going there for dress code.
J is for jerky boys, like Jimmy, John, Steven, and Cody.
K is for Kyle, my lil brother and best friend.
L is for laughs, while I had quite a lot of.
M is for money, which I owe my friend Brooke from two months ago XD
N is for Natzi, which I called my super-mean art teacher.
O is for Office Detention, I've never had to serve.
P is for papers, I've turned in a ton.
Q is for questions that I ask my teachers about stupid things.
R is for Retarded Russian Spies, it's an inside joke with me and Sam.
S is for Sam, my best friend in the world.
T is for trouble, which I get in quite a bit of with ^^^that kid lol.
U is for uncomfortable, like without air conditioning.
V is for Vauntalin, which is a cool name and I know somebody with that name idk.
W is for water, like the fountains where all the cool kids hang out.
X is for eXpelled, which I did not get.
Y is for young, which we are.
Z is for zouwnefufoenwufne, because nothing starts with Z.

i know...

i know it's been a long while since i actually posted on here and i appologize humbly because it has been an absolute eternity since i have had any time to post what so ever.

but i am back :) remember me? well yeah you should. things have been crazy busy lately. i went on tour for schoolhouse rock, kristine is back living with us, school is almost over, studying for finals, lots of stuff to do and i really haven't had time. but i am back. and i have words  to say. but when do i not, really?

like i said, the year is almost over for my school. i have four and a half days. it makes me kind of sad. if we move again, these might be the only four and a half days i have left in this very school, the one in which i met my friends, lost some friends, and had such a confusing year that i cant say anything. but i will. i want to talk about it.

well, long story short, emma and ben are not really in the picture right now. i say that with regrets, because i do love them. but that's a crowd i'd rather mingle with another time. you all remember kyle, of course, my little baby brother, two feet tall, forgets everything, that kyle? yeah. me, him, sam, and anita have all had a bit of an...interesting year. with a couple of mixups along the way, but in all, we've really come together. we like to think of each other as my crew. we've gotten incredibly close.

sam. we all know sam, of course. he's got the afro. my best friend, the one i'm brutally honest with, the one who can be a jerk but loves my guts and will probably cry the most if i die. anita, my closest girlfriend, who i trust with everything.

it's funny. a couple of months ago i ranted about ben and emma like this, then posted some nice pictures, and now they barely exist and i've moved on.

well, that's how it works with me, i guess. i rant and rample. i change gears. i move on and leave things behind if they're not good for me or if i fight. nothing bad happened. don't get worried, it's just that my style has changed just a bit and sam pulled through where ben couldn't, anita ran ahead of where emma was walking. i like things a bit more fast paced. there's nothing wrong with that.

and for those who liked the picture posts, don't worry, there will be tons more. but for now, i wanted to talk :) thanks for reading loves

you said that a minute ago

My boys are my boys. And you do NOT touch my boys.-JakJak from Superhero Names

she's old enough to know better

 Ivanna winked at me, her green eyes shinier than ever tonight. "Know what, Niko?" She said. "I don't think you're all that tough. I think you're in love." And then she kissed me.-Lucky Seven by C.F. Flynn

So you are gonna have to move

 There really is no such thing as perfect. Stop thinking you're going to achieve it because it is simply impossible. That's a fact, babe.-Adri from A Little Less Than Perfect

 Life gets hard, it gets so heavy. The wheel breaks the butterfly. Every tear a waterfall, in the night, the stormy night, she closed her eyes. She said oh, I know this sun has set to rise.-Paradise by Coldplay

 From every mistake, we must surely be learning.-While My Guitar Gently Weeps by the Beatles

 It was a beautiful thing, the zebra habitat. One lay on a sunny rock, another was playing with three babies. Yes, grass was everywhere, and tall, leafy plants sprouted up. There were some tall trees, plenty of sunny boulders for the zebras to lay on, and lots of room for them to run around in. The zebras themselves were beautiful, striped, muscular, with that single-lined mane and big, black eyes. There were two adults and three babies, and the whole environment smelled like sunshine, grass, and hay. There was a little stream running through it for their water, and a little trough for their food.-Brigit from Comix

 I'm screaming at the midnight air, everyone hears me but I don't care. My heart's clenched just like a fist, cause people, I didn't ask for any of this. And I'm not fine, I'm not fine...-Just Another Birthday by Casting Crowns

 And I like to use the word "dude" as a noun or an adverb or an adjective, And I, I've never really been into cars, I like really cool guitars and superheros-Introducing Me by Nick Jonas

 But if I let these things die, if I lay down all my dark desire, if I let these dreams die, will I find that letting go makes me come alive?-Empty My Hands by Tenth Avenue North

Ten facts about Cassidy:
1: I like to quote songs/books that I really like.
2: I am absolutely in love with the eiffel tower and that's one place I would love to go to before I die.
3: I have celebrity crushes on Niall Horan, Nick Jonas, Avan Jogia, and Liam Hemsworth.
4: I like doing different things with my hair. All the time.
5: I love Tumblr.
6: I'm going to live in Europe one day because there are lots of hot guys there.
7: I can't wait until somebody proposes to me. Even if they're joking.
8:  I want to ride in the back of a truck with a blanket, my future boyfriend, and candy bars.
9: I'm full of surprises, and sometimes I don't finish what I start. ;)