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So how y'all doing? My name's Cassidy and the gentleman you see in my picture is Sam. I like cats and music a lot and oh I play the ukulele, piano, and other shtuff. Have a nice day :)

Tuesday, January 17, 2012

this HAD to happen...-_-

You have to ruin this?

Okay, I will admit, my most recent posts have been rather...nice. For me. They've been all writery and cute and poem-and-picturey, not my norm. But this post is going to have to just be me yelling at somebody for something they can't help. Like the good ole days!

So here's the thing: remember my friend Emma? Well, she slept over this weekend. We had a great time and stayed up late and painted out nails and listened to music blah blah. Texted my friend Brian a thousand times at three AM, he sent me a picture of his creepy demon cat, typical things.

Well we were just talking and out of the blue Emma goes "Ben likes you."

I choked on chips right about then. "What? Are you serious?"
"Yeah. I asked him, 'do you like Kitty,' and he gave me that look."
"What look?"
"The look someone gives you when you know that if you answer them with the answer they think you're going to give them will be lying so they just give you that look!"
"Not helpful at all."
"But yes, he likes you."


WHY? WhywhywhywhywhyWHY did this have to happen? I mean, I love Ben and all, but I don't want to date Ben! You saw my post! You saw our awkward friendship! HOW LONG HAS HE LIKED ME? Oh goodness maybe I'm just oblivious maybe it's been months.

This is starting to slowly kill me...

And the thing is: I haven't talked to him since Friday. So now I'm just gonna go to school and act totally normal around him? Right? Because this is something that happens to me every day, you know, your best friend ends up having a little crush on you.

ROAR couldn't it be someone I don't like? Like Jimmy? I don't like Jimmy. I wouldn't mind rejecting Jimmy if he asked me out. That I could handle.

But BEN? ARG why does the one person that I will not date happen to

I'm sorry. I haven't really loaded you guys up with boy drama yet. Because it doesn't happen often with me. I try to avoid drama. But this is like...sorry. I don't know what to do, you guys. I don't want him to know I know, because if he knows I know, then we'll both know that I knew and then the whole school will know and when they know they think we've been dating and we were lying and then that's going to be great for our reputations that are already so, so great.

The rumors. How do I react to those. "Hey, are you and Ben dating?"

Oh, no, actually, but apparently he gave Emma a look, somehow symbolifying that he likes me, but I was just recently informed of this and I don't like him back, actually, he's one of the many boys in our school that I wouldn't date, but not because I don't like him, just because we're too good friends to ruin it.

Well consider it ruined.

This is going to be an awkward day...


Adelle said...

Ohhh shoot... that's happened to me too D: I acted normal, distanced myself for a while, and then it passed and went back to normal. And sometimes people can be wrong about the whole "look" thing... Don't worry about it too much! :)
I hope it gets better!

Anonymous said...

A bit of advice:
Why are you so worked up about this if you don't "like, like" him? If he's your friend--a true friend, you will be able to talk with him about it honestly if it ever comes up in a conversation.
Anyway, don't rip your hair out, teen drama is like the weather; wait a few days and it will change.


T-WAC said...

Eargh... that's awkward.
That happened to me once. Except she was one of my best friends and I actually DID like her back.

Anyway, you don't know how he feels for sure yet. After all, the "look" spoken of might have been him just unable to speak because of how awkward it would be if he actually did like you. Or he might like you, but have no intention of acting on those feelings, because he doesn't want to hurt the friendship you guys have.

My advice would be don't worry about it. Just don't stress out about it. If you stress out about it and try to act normal, you won't be acting normal at all.
Oh, and ask God for guidance. That helps more than anything else.

Hope that helps.

shannon said...

That really stinks, my advice is don't try to act normal because if you try to act normal then he'll probably notice. Sometimes when you try to act normal you end up acting really, really strange.

Corrina said...

guys, dont tell me to "act normal." that is not happening. this is cassidy youre talking to...normal aint in the job description.

Corrina said...

woops sorry that last one was cassidy heh heh so is this okay bye