if i was a sculptor

I attended a wedding this weekend. It was my Aunt Terry's, and she married my new uncle Mike. pretty crazy stuff, although it was fun to see my family. i wish them luck and lots of love along the way.

cam is back! i missed him so much. i've talked to him tons this summer. i love my cameron.

school starts in twenty three days, and that makes me kind of sad. i really do not want to return to a public school environment. ever. especially without the boys. although i will have erin, and ezra's coming to my school next year, i think. still. i don't want to have to deal with all the drama and other crap. i don't want homework again. it's not even like "oh well i will see my friends again" because i saw my friends ALL summer, so that's not even promising. i'm just dreading it a ton.

tonight i'm sleeping over kyla's house and going to the beach tomorrow. i love the ocean, really. i'm with ally wednesday and thursday, and hoping to be with erin thursday into friday. doing a thing with the family on saturday. cookout sunday, oh my. super busy.

SIDE NOTE! I have indeed begun my summer school assignments! it's literally the worst. i don't like it but i will get it done in time. i started today. oh, the motivation.

alright. that aught to do it :3 byye

holding hands

so i spent a week at summer camp. made two adorable, awesome friends. i'm exhausted. i'm sunburned. good stuff right there.

i actually get to see shannon this thursday and i am super excited, because i haven't seen that girl in ages. her whole family is apparently coming over. i'm pretty happy. we have so much catching up to do. i can't wait to be able to chat with her.

cam's away at camp for a week and i already miss him tons. i told him to stay out of trouble. he won't.

i am yet to do the summer packet we were assigned. it's a good thing i still have a month because i can't see that thing leaving the bookshelf for another solid three weeks.

i am going to sleep. goodnight :3

there's nothing to tell.

i have not been on in a while. there are reasons.

and i don't want to say all of them. so i will say three.

1. i have been in a sad mood lately. which happens to everyone, i suppose. i don't want anybody to worry, because i'm not sick or in danger or anything. i guess i'm just a person. cam and ezra have been helping with that. and i guess we'll all be okay.

2. i have been on vacation. and that was very busy and i didn't have much spare time.

3. i have not been writing much. i haven't been writing nearly at all like i used to. it's not good, really. the writing isn't good. i finished one story that i have put up online. but it's not as good as i want it to be. and i think that, although writing is good for the soul, it's not good for mine.

and i'm not saying i'm dropping this blog, because this holds some memories from earlier days. earlier versions of myself. and i guess i just don't want to make people impatient or mad or anything. i'm just tired of not wanting to post because i feel depressed or i'm too busy or i can't really write at all. whatever, i guess. i'm tired. i love you. good afternoon.

fences

Hey okay so I have had a lot to do lately nobody hate me for vanishing for like a month.

we went to canobie lake park, me and erin and the boys. it was amazing to say the least. it's only been a week out of school and i miss them all like crazy. cam's grounded (shocking) and sad and has been messaging me a lot because he needs a friend. at the moment, i'm really his only friend. everyone turns their back on him when he needs them. that boy needs love more than anything.

erin had a party which was really cool and we went swimming a lot and i talked to some cool people. i stayed the night and we talked until two thirty in the morning. having friends who are girls is awesome.

i spent all yesterday with ezra and it was very cool. because friendship is very cool.

tomorrow i have to go to the dentist. i hate the dentist. and then i get to go see a movie with corrina and sandra and maybe hunter and brandon but i don't know. but i still hate the dentist.

we graduated middle school. me and the boys, all of us. we're freshman. it's terrifying. we're so old but so young at the same time. i swear, they all act like they're eight anyways. i miss those kids. they're all going to baypath next year, every single one. it makes me sad. those kids are my family, in a weird sense. and i'm part of theirs. i'll just have erin, the only other girl in our little circle. we'll have to survive.

and i'm tired because i had a long day today xD have a lovely evening.

when shadows follow us

i have been totally exhausted lately and i blame ezra 100% because he's the only person who texts me at night and it's not like i want to stop talking to him because we're friends and whatnot but it's just...oh insomniac friends. please sleep.

we have less than two weeks of school and i have been even more tired and class and neglected my actual work even more than usual. i'm finishing the year out with honors, but i'm still tired and will welcome summer with open arms.

summer, which will contain sleeping and concerts and time with the boys and music and hopefully festivals and more fun than school. i'd still prefer it to be winter or fall, because those are marvelous times, but summer is anxiously awaited by me and my other friends who are sick of bookwork and want to go live our lives out in the world.

i'm going to miss people, yeah. but i have stuff i want to do. it's going to be lovely. i'm in a good mood. i have to go do homework and exercise and talk to ezra and be merry. have a wonderful day.

what to say

so there's a boy now

summer is rapidly approaching and i've been busy lately, but not with anything interesting. we're graduating in ten days. semiformal was pretty lovely and cam didn't wear a tie or anything just an asking alexandria shirt and jeans and his mom flipped out on him. i went with erin as friends and it was nice. speaking of cam, he set a picture of him as my ipod wallpaper and now i have to see his derp face whenever i turn it on. i don't have the heart or the ambition to change it.

i'm not sure what to say other than that it's cloudy out and i have to be somewhere in half an hour and i'm going to miss all my friends and he can't even go to school with me and cam and ryan and seth and tyler and shaun and everybody in the world is leaving for baypath and it's just going to be me erin and almicarr. ugh oh well.

today's going to be nice though because it's aidan and kristine's dance recital and i get to go and i'm happy and sleepy and i stayed up too late last night talking to somebody.

i do have to go though, i just wanted to blog a bit because i'm sorry for abandoning this it's just i've been far too busy lately bye :)

Dress

So both semiformal and promotional (which is basically middle school graduation and is stupid) are coming up in the next month and for both of which, i am required to wear a dress. as in like a dress-code approved actual dress that i have to wear on two separate occasions. i guess its worth it though because cameron and seth and ryan have to wear ties and whatnot.

speaking of whom, cam's sister jenna has my hat (and i have no idea why.) i gave it to haleigh, and cam took it from her, and jenna took it from cam. i miss that hat. i want it back. stupid jenna.

sam and i and friends went to six flags this past saturday, and it was really fun. we made friends with some kids who waited in lines for some of the rides we did. they were cool. we had a ton of fun and rode all the roller coasters and i got drenched on blizzard river or whatever. we got to spend the whole day together and it was amazing just having fun all day.

we took science and tech MCAS today, and that was absolutely no fun. it was mostly just me making faces at seth from across the room and being told to stop talking and doing infinite makeup work for math after i finished incredibly early. i don't mind science, but i'm not a fan of standardized tests in general. oh well. we take it again tomorrow and afterwards, after me and drew and josh's persistent bothering and suggesting and yelling, mrs. finlay is letting us watch monty python and the holy grail instead of social studies. which is good, because we get out of class and i can just talk through a movie.

i think that'll do it for today. cassdawg OUT.